Jonathan’s Biggest Mistake In His Life.

[[[ Once I asked Jonathan, how will you propose your Sara for marriage, once you get her. This is what Jonathan told me in a dramatic way. ]]]

I didn’t say it before to any girl in my life. I Jonathan who always believe in his principles, words having much more value than anything else in the world, want to tell you something. Please don’t make fun out of this and please make this talk confidential. From the past few days I am talking to you. And I am very much comfortable in talking to you. I tried a lot to impress you by sending you some good proverb mails. But I am bit failure in such kind of thing, you know that. Because If someone deviates from its natural behavior, either he/she overreact or embarrassed by the other person. But the fact is like I have some special interest in you. And I want to approach you for the sacred relationship between two human beings of opposite sex, towards which society having enormous respect. Yes that’s husband-wife relationship.

It’s a fact that I don’t love you. I like you so much. I respect your thought process. As per our talk, I think you understand my thought process also. I have never fall in love. Always I believe that “There is nothing called love in this world. It is just an addiction at a perfect time with a perfect person”. But I can’t deny that I had never feelings towards any girls. And a feeling generated towards a person is very normal. One can not deny that he/she have feelings towards a person of opposite sex at the age of 45 also. It’s just if you see a beautiful baby with smiling face. It’s very normal that you want to play with him/her, kiss him/her. Its same for the feelings generated with the same age people also.

Feelings generated between same age people having different sex, differs with the age of the persons. I believe like this. At the age less than 15, what our friends used to say “I am in love with that girl”. It was nothing but a attraction towards a beautiful face. What mostly people used the word like infatuation. One can get some spiritual energy from a presentable, beautiful face if he has some feelings towards her. At this age mostly they are not that much matured enough to know about sexual conquest also.

Then the age of 15-18, at this age brain is always hungry for exploring things. Searching for a different. At this age once I was asked what love is. And I defined it like this – “Everyone figures out his soul mate either in conscious or subconscious mind, when he encounters such kind of persons with such kind of attributes, he feels that she is different. He tried to getting closer with her. And trying to analyze, compare her behavior with the other persons around her. And as more he compares, realized the difference and feels more and more that she is different from the whole world. And that’s what we called LOVE”.

Graduation time, All guys want to having a female friend and all girls the same a male friend. It starts from the exchanging of note book and ends with the college last semester exam. In between the relationship was so stronger. Some relationships grow with the mutual understanding that it is going to ends with the graduation. In between they mostly busy with discover the body of an opposite sex. What here we called Boyfriend-Girlfriend relationship. It is undefined for me. Because India is still a quite conservative place. Our mind cant accept this living-in relationship. These boyfriend-girlfriend relationships are defined in the countries – where child says like “My step mother’s regular boy friend” kind of thing. Or once my friend asked a 7 year kid, “what is your father name?”. The answer is like “How the fuck I would know who is my father”.

All relationship I mentioned, feelings in hearts, emotions, attachment or you can say addictions are in one side and Marriage is another side. Despite of country, despite of religion, despite of cast everyone respect this husband-wife relationship. Everyone thinks thrice before saying the line “Will you marry me?”. I want to say this to you “I want to make my home with you. Will you marry me?”

[[[ After listening everything, I said to Jonathan – never did a mistake to say all these to a artificial coquette Sara, Who tried to behave like your Sara. Be careful Jonathan, you can be easily duped by any flirtatious beautiful girl. ]]]